Um

Today is my birthday. I am 29 years old. Somehow, that doesn’t equate.

Allow me to indulge.

Would like a birthday picnic like this:

(photo from larkabout.me)

At a rooftop like this:

(photo from simple blueprint)

Somewhere in Sweden, of course! So many places to choose from here

That goes without saying, I’d be with my boyfriend (friends and family, optional). Perhaps next year. (:

Pretty

It enables me to breathe more freely. Also,

Nice yellow details. Me like! As always, everything from the beautiful skonahem

Coming Home

It’s been very difficult. Fever of unknown origin has escalated to heart attack, to multiple organ failure. Everything’s being done but the body is very weak. I want to come home already; home meaning peace of mind, body and spirit.

During the worst hours, I decided to go online and these photos from finelittleday helped me get things off my mind, even for just a while. When dad’s able to go home, I wish I had something as pretty as this house, to take him home to.

he’d love to have sunday breakfast here, fosho. i may have gotten my love for al fresco from him

coffee, fruit juice, newspaper check!

he can lounge in the arm chair. the citrusy knick knacks, they’re just for me. hehe

Oh dear dad, please get better soon. We’ve so much shit to do, still! I still wanna do that Japan date with you; yes I’d eat fish again but only with you and only in Japan. Besides, look at all the people rallying behind you! C’mon!

Happy

It’s summer in Manila right now and it’s been ridiculously hot. hawt. It’s the kind of hot that makes you irritable and sticky and…never mind. At least, I’m at the office where the AC is thankfully available.

Been feeling like of bleh. I’ve been looking at my life, at my life’s to-do list, and I don’t know. While I take refuge in those words I’ve previously shared here—we all go our own pace—I can’t help but feel like I’m nearer failure than success, nearer failure than happy.

I try not to indulge in these gloomy thoughts because a) maybe I should look into old to-do lists; perhaps a few items have been crossed out? maybe my dreams are changing. maybe I feel I haven’t done anything noteworthy relative to my present to-do list, but relative to my old one…siguro naman, diba?

and b) I am doing all I can to be able to say at least I tried, or at least I finished with that little life dream. So, a few photos that have been successful in keeping the gloom at bay.

If only Philippine summers aren’t as cruel, then we can all hang out like this:

But Philippine summers are cruel so let’s just sit indoors, shall we?

All photos from the brilliant skonahem.

Ps. I love skonahem! If only I can read swedish. Sigh.

Waiting Room

Do you like horoscopes? I do. My friend-crush-idol said it’s a good way of taking on a person, at least you have an idea of the person’s tendencies, his moods, etc. I only really started to read them daily three years ago when shit hit the fan. I only read them now because it’s become a habit. Something that heats my engine before a full day ahead.

Anyway, today I received a good advice from my Chinese Horoscope (yep, I wouldn’t be surprised if I started reading Nordic). It said:

Wait for your turn in life.

Yeah, because I feel like tunnel by which hook ups and break ups pass and I’m becoming impatient: When will I ever be part of that cycle? Break ups not so but I wanna hook up, too! Yep, feeling kind of lonely lately. But that advice, I think I will listen to that advice. It is very good. It assures me that there is something for which I wait.

And so while I wait, I life map! Hehe Look at these:

(photos from emmasblog)

The second photo, I reckon, is only good 1) on paper or 2) as long as that window isn’t facing the morning sun. You’ll be damned if that’s facing the morning sun. Been waking up early because my bed seems to have an early morning date with the sun. Not complaining, just stating a fact.